A Letter to a Father from a broken Mother

Why are you not here? I’m sitting here waiting on the doctor’s report. Why are you not here? I am sitting, waiting, and watching our child take slow, shallow breaths, why are you not here? I haven’t gotten much sleep from monitoring every breath that our child takes, why are you not here? You’ve been informed of our child’s condition, but yet it’s only me here. This is my first experience of a hospital admittance with our child, and I’m a little afraid, but I have to be strong for our child, why are you not here? I try to rest, but I can’t help but listen to the beeping monitors and hear the nurses rotating in and out of the room. Why are you not here? Is it because you feel that they are in good hands? Is it because you think that I can handle it on my own? Is it because you can’t? Do you even know that you should be here? These were the feelings and questions I had, but until I stopped asking questions and listened to the still small voice, I was able to see who was there. I realized I was never alone. God was with me holding my hand, from the nurses in and out the room, from the family coming to visit every day, from the phone call giving me directions on how the treatment will go. I didn’t have all the answers, and that’s okay, but I know the moment I realized who was there, I stop asking why you are not here. Maybe God wanted to show me his strength is made perfect in my weakness, and for that, I am thankful.

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20 thoughts on “A Letter to a Father from a broken Mother

  1. It is good to be grateful for what we have at times instead of wondering why we don’t have something. I totally understand all your questions. I have wondered those same things myself in different circumstances.

  2. This is the reality of many relationships today. It’s unfortunate that often times women are left alone to raise their children. It took two to make that precious gift and it should take two to raise it and love it. However, even though the other contributer has left the building, the game isn’t over and like you said ” I realized I was never alone. God was with me holding my hand…..” He is always there. When everyone leaves you and forgets about you, he is there. I have so much respect for women because you guys are so resilient and strong. You know how to pick up the pieces and do what must be done. I only wish the men that leave their families could see the importance and value in staying to raise their children. The kids don’t deserve to be left. They entered this world because you choose them. So, it isn’t fair for you to leave them to fend for themselves.

    1. Thank you. I agree with you and it is very unfortunate but the one thing I have learned during this little time I’ve been on earth it’s not so much what happens to you it’s how you respond to what happens to you. Thank you so much for checking out my website.

  3. Santha,
    Thank you for following my For His Glory blog. I hope and pray that some things along the way that God gives me to share will give you some encouragement. I’ll be praying for your child. I’m so sorry your have to face this alone. Fathers across the country are abdicating their parental responsibilities. I am sorry. Please keep us posted on your time with your child n the hospital. I am praying that God will answer our prayers and bring healing to your child and comfort and peace to you. God bless you.

    1. Thank you so much. My child is doing well it was all through the grace of God and thank you so much for your prayers. You are welcome and thank you for checking out my blog as well.

  4. I pray that your child and both your hearts will be healed, and that the God of Jeshurun will continue to provide for you. Thanks for your honest testimony. I wish men of God would rise up and become who they were meant to be.

    1. Thank you so much. I always find peace in knowing that God is always in control even when I don’t understand and have questions or get frustrated…he knows.

  5. Powerful post! May your child be well soon! Know that God truly never abandons us even at times it feels like He does. When we calm down so we can hear that Still Voice Within, that is when we know without unshaken doubt that He is there. God bless you. <3

    1. You are very welcome. The father not being in the home has a huge impact on children and the purpose of the blog is not to shine light on the abandonment but to shine light on the triumph in spite of the abandonment.

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